an argument about a rotten reality...

I initiated an argument with Lance last week. It revolved around my accusation of him being "unpressured" because he is still currently reviewing for the board exams. I insisted that he is unable to understand my frustrations and worries because he is not compelled yet to find a job. He appeared very positive and patient with everything despite the numerous rotten possibilities that he could fail the board exams and his father could retire anytime soon. Writing that sentence just made me realize how foolish and envious my accusations are. I could not have been clearer in emphasizing the fact that I am working and he is not. So when he retorted that I could not just see and imagine the pressure that his course (Mechanical Engineering) and upcoming board exams have on him, I bombarded him with my thoughtless claims that "school pressure" and "work pressure plus the discovery of the real rotten world" are two different things. He told me that I know nothing of his current academic ordeals and worries about his future to which I responded that I am more than willing to have our situations switched and go to school than to face this dreary place they call reality.

The heated argument gradually turned melancholic when we finally realized how we are both displeased and frustrated in different ways. I succumbed to the poignant truth that facing reality without teachers and a second home is far more difficult than I have imagined. I have always been the adventurous type of person who loves to encounter challenges and experience unfamiliar things; however, this past months have revealed far too many unfamiliar yet disturbing realities about the world and its people. I discovered how all these years I have viewed the world with naiveté by constantly believing that there is a certain goodness in everyone's heart. Nonetheless, the new encounters and meetings with strangers proved how selfishness and conceit can topple that goodness aside. I told Lance how the world looks much different on this side than on his and wondered if he would catch a glimpse of this place in my type of point of view. Sometimes I doubt it though I am quite sure he would. He has always been the stronger and optimistic one--a dramatic foil to my character. His judgments has always been more accurate than mine. I guess he already had an image of this place before I had the chance to encounter it. He is always like that anyway--knowing things and keeping it hidden until time demands its revelation.

Of course, we made up after an hour of arguing. We have always enjoyed arguments, though. Arguing gives us the chance to speak what's on our mind without being overly sensitive with each other's feelings. I guess that is why we always end up fighting especially when the subject is related to religion and Jude Law. Nevertheless, our argument about reality is one of the most remarkable ones because we end up agreeing (which seldom happens) and sympathetic with each other.

Pinoy Vocabulary - Forwarded Email

Hahaha di talaga ko nagppost ng emails kaso badtrip tong post na to. Sobrang tahimik akong natawa dito sa office. Naalala ko tuloy ang laughing trip namin ni Randolf at Sabrina sa Call Center Fundamentals class namin! Hahahahaha!

Pinoy Vocabulary

KUNTIL - sobrang balat sa tenga
SMAKATUM - dumi sa tenga
SPRIKITIK - libag na naipon sa relo
KUYUKOT - tumbong
ASOGUE - buhok sa kili-kili
JABONGGA - sex
MULMUL - buhok sa gitna ng isang nunal
BAKTOL - ikatlong lebel ng mabahong amoy sa kili-kili
BARNAKOL - maitim na libag sa batok na naipon ng matagal na panahon
KABOODLE - kulangot
TUKNENENG - boiled quail eggs and fried with orange flour
KWEK KWEK - bigger version ng tukneneng
WENEKLEK - buhok sa utong
KALAMANTUTAY - mabahong pangalan
TONENG - sex
BAKTUNG - bakat utong
BAKTI - bakat panty
NGOTNGOT - spiral cord sa phone
PAKAPLOG - pinoy breakfast: pandesal, kape, itlog
TARUGO - maitim na ari
APIPAK - 2-4 na buhok na matatagpuan sa ibabaw ng hinlalaking
daliri sa paa
BUTUYTUY - pagkalalaki ng isang bata
TANGBURUROT - pururot na tae
PASAS - utong ng lola
KUKURIKAPU - libag sa ilalim ng boobs
URMOT - matubig na tae
TRIPOKTIK - huling droplets ng ihi
PUYUKOT - maliliit / mabibilog na piraso ng tae
TUBOL - malalaking piraso ng tae
BURNIK - taeng sumabit sa buhok ng pwet
BURIS - matubig na tae / parang gripo ang pwet
BULTOKATSI - tubig na tumatalsik sa pwet kapag nalaglag ang isang
malaking ebak

Lyrics Gone bad - Forwarded Email

This e-mail sort of reminds me of the first blog entries of Ara in her blogspot account. :D

Lyrics gone bad

The Greatest Love of All by Whitney Houston -
I decided long ago, never to walk in edu manzano...
(I decided long ago, never to walk in anyone's shadow)

Cry by Mandy Moore -
A walk to remember... it was late afternoon!
(I'll always remember, it was late afternoon)

All My Life by K-ci and Jojo -
supposed to be you're like my mother,supposed to be you're like my sister
(close to me you're like my mother... close to me you're like my sister)

Where is the Love -
People killing, people flying, children hurt an living, crying...
(People killing, people dying; children hurt and you hear them crying)

Leaving on a jet plane -
so kiss me and SMAFFLE me...
(so kiss me and smile for me...)

Usher & Alicia's My Boo -
It started when we were younger you were NINE...
(It started when we were younger you were mine)

Usher & Alicia's My Boo (again!) -
...and you were my BEYBLADE...
it started when were younger you were FINE...
(and you were my baby...)

If I Ain't Got You by Alicia Keys -
some people want TAMBOURINES..
(diamond rings)

Britney's Baby One More Time -
My ONLY NEST is killing me... and I........
(My loneliness....)

Thumbthumping (Chumbawumba) -
I get knocked down by an elephant, my mommas's gonna bring me down...
(I get knocked down, but I get up again and no one's gonna bring me down)

Crush by Jennifer Paige -
i-splash, a little crush..
(it's just.. a little crush..)

Red Hot's Californication -
Viva Californication....
(Dream of Californication...)

No scrubs, TLC -
A scrub is a guy who thinks he's fine but is also known as a BUS STOP
(buster)

Waterfalls by TLC:
Don't go JASON waterfalls...
(Chasin')

John Mayer -You're ALICE IN WONDERLAND..
You're ALICE IN WONDERLAND I'll use my hands
(Body is a wonderland)

Baa Baa Black Sheep:
Baa baa black sheep, heavy on the road...

With A Smile by Eraserheads:
lift ur HAND.. baby dont be scared.. of the things that could go wrong along the way..
(HEAD!!!)

Wag Na Wag Mong Sasabihin by Kitchie Nadal:
maaaaaaaaaag... , magdamag mong sasabihin...
(waaaaaaaaaag..., wag na wag mong sasabihin...)

Two-Trick Pony by Sandwich -
i have been waiting for you all night under the glow of INSECENT LIGHT
(...under the glow of YOUR SATELLITE)

On Bended Knees by Boyz II Men:
Oh God give me the reason, I'M DOWN... ABANDON ME...
(I'm down on bended knee)

Red Hot's Zephyr Song:
Fly away on my CELLPHONE...I feel it more than ever
(Fly away on my zephyr, I feel it more than ever)

AND FINALLY....

Soul of Christ... sat beside me...
(sanctify me! )

i second the motion that the government needs a major overhaul -- literally.

I do not write much about Philippine politics because I am afraid that its repulsiveness is way too contagious. However, I have read another good friend's blog about how she thinks the government needs a "complete makeover". She thinks it is the solution for the never-ending government corruption problem. I could not agree more and I meant the "makeover" literally.

I have not turned on our television for quite some time. Well, actually I did but together with the dvd player for movie purposes. Then, last night I have seen a footage of Jun Lozada being brought back to the custody of the Senate. It is quite enraging to see news about government corruption. These kinds of news are becoming too much of a cliché that they even bore my idiot box to death by producing buzzing "zzz..." sounds. I am not a fan of Lozada. I think, he, too is a beneficiary of the administration's public theft activities. My friend, Sab, says that one of the reasons why he probably turned against the government is because he was not getting "supplies" anymore. Well, it is most likely; however, despite this probable fact, he is still fighting for something (regardless if it is mere vengeance for not getting more). I do not support him but I support his cause to stop and publicly disclose the government's wrongdoings. He is part of the many similarly corrupt members of the opposition such as Panfilo Lacson, Mar Roxas and Jamby Madrigal who are also determined to ruin the government's reputation. However, these people, together with Malacanang do not differ at all which is why I am also against their campaign to replace the administration. I just think Malacanang should be stopped but I do not agree that they be replaced with these people. Not at all. It would be just be like a dejavu of Ferdinand Marcos being replaced by gentler liars and thieves.

I have even heard of Manny Pacquiao running for Congress next year and it just further triggered my distaste of him. I guess he thinks that he can solve the country's problem with his boxing skills and millions of money. 'Reminds me of Joseph Estrada who ran the government with his acting skills and treachery. They consider politics like a "retirement area" where they can get loads of retirement fees by simply thinking stupid. Haha what do you expect from these kinds of people anyway. The best thing in the Pacquiao issue is that the Church believes he is better off as a Mayor because he needs more legal knowledge. What the! Does that mean a mayoral post requires lesser legal knowledge? My apologies but I am sensing hypocrisies all around me and I am getting really sickened by it.

Okay, I think I got carried away there. Nonetheless, the major overhaul should start in every district no matter how big or small. From councilors to presidents, everyone should be banished of their positions. This country has grown tired of electing the same kind of officials who aims to serve the country in the condition that they get more beyond their basic salaries. This country needs a break from selfishness. Everyone has become too selfish for their own good. I do not have a detailed description of how I think this country should be run and I believe that is the problem. Nobody has a concrete plan for this country without the consideration of their own financial stability. Everybody seems to have a plan that includes their own lifetime payslips.

I do not have a better plan and it is disheartening to realize that the country needs change but no specific alternative seems to be better. Nonetheless, I believe this country needs more than just leaders--it needs better citizens and I think they should all be educated.

the unfulfilled writing career.

I have not been writing for a long time now. Funny, 'cause I work as a researcher/writer here in Makati Ave yet I have never really felt like a writer at all. I got motivated to blog about this frustration while I was listening to some OPM (Original Pinoy Music) songs last night until 2 in the morning. Then, this afternoon I have read a good friend's blog [Gusto kong magsulat] about how he missed writing so it just triggered the frustration further.

I do not hate my job. However, these past few weeks I am starting not to like it either. I guess the pressure and stress that the work delivers are making it hard for me to appreciate its once promising purposes in my career. I do not know if its because I am growing tired of doing the works or the system. All I know is I am growing tired and restless.