have you ever done something overwhelmingly insane that you made a pact with yourself never to do it again? or at least not tell anyone you've done it... again and again.
i did... several times after i promised myself and some people who knows and cares for me never to do it again. it was 3 o'clock in the morning, i was waiting for the clock to strike 4 so i can prepare for work when the seductive thought of it came embracing my body so rigorously. it's like an old flame i left a long time ago without the capability to move on. honestly, i missed the sense of reality that it gives me but the extreme feeling of guilt just came pouring down like raging waters on a silent stream. it seems like a trance i am so afraid and at the same time excited to go through.
that day, i went to work with a broken smile on my face. nobody noticed. nobody saw the leftovers of the emotional ordeal i was going through. but before the day end and the clock strikes like crazy, i confessed the act to that one person who i knew would be angriest among them all. he was mad. like hell.
i promised never to do it again. my God, help me remember these promises.
when the clock strikes crazy
madness, secrets
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i wonder what it is.
haha funny, vergic. it happened bago tayo nagchat sa YM kung san sabi ko sayo di ak natulog para di ko malate sa work. :-)
So, na-late ka ba? Hehehe.. I like writing in metaphors too, it makes people think. Tapos pag binasa ko after a year or so, naalala ko pa din kung ano ba ang ibig kong sabhin dun.
hehe syempre di ako na-late, andun ka para manlibang eh. haha! oo lalo na pag online journal hirap maging too straightforward pag personal entry. tsaka masayang mag-express ng feelings figuratively. hehehe!
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