when the clock strikes crazy

have you ever done something overwhelmingly insane that you made a pact with yourself never to do it again? or at least not tell anyone you've done it... again and again.

i did... several times after i promised myself and some people who knows and cares for me never to do it again. it was 3 o'clock in the morning, i was waiting for the clock to strike 4 so i can prepare for work when the seductive thought of it came embracing my body so rigorously. it's like an old flame i left a long time ago without the capability to move on. honestly, i missed the sense of reality that it gives me but the extreme feeling of guilt just came pouring down like raging waters on a silent stream. it seems like a trance i am so afraid and at the same time excited to go through.

that day, i went to work with a broken smile on my face. nobody noticed. nobody saw the leftovers of the emotional ordeal i was going through. but before the day end and the clock strikes like crazy, i confessed the act to that one person who i knew would be angriest among them all. he was mad. like hell.

i promised never to do it again. my God, help me remember these promises.

You Don't Know Me - Ben Folds & Regina Spektor

I heard this song earlier on Miss Jeanie Derillo's friendster profile. It automatically plays on once you visit her page and the first couple of beats already had me scrolling down to see the title of the song on her playlist. It is like a song hollowed out from the 90s. I also like the harmony between the two artists (Ben Folds & Regina Spektor). Take time to listen to the song along with the lyrics. I guess I'll be experiencing the last song syndrome for a couple of days or weeks.




You Don't Know Me Lyrics

I wanna ask you
Do you ever sit and wonder,
It's so strange
That we could be together for
So long, and never know, never care
What goes on in the other one's head?

Things I've felt but I've never said
You said things that I never said
So I'll say something that I should have said long ago:

(You don't know me)
You don't know me at all
(You don't know me)
You don't know me at all (at all)

You could have just propped me up on the table like a mannequin
Or a cardboard stand-up and paint me (paint me anything)
Any face that you wanted me
To be seen.
We're
Damned by the existential moment where
We saw the couple in the coma and
It was we were the cliché,
But we carried on anyway.

So, sure, I could just close my eyes.
Yeah, sure, trace and memorize,
But can you go back once you know

(You don't know me)
You don't know me at all
(You don't know me)
You don't know me at all (at all)

(You don't know me)
You don't know me at all
(You don't know me)
You don't know me

If I'm the person that you think I am (Ah ah ahh)
Clueless chump you seem to think I am (Ah ah ahhh)
So easily led astray,
An errant dog who occasionally escapes and needs a shorter leash, then
Why the fuck would you want me back?!

Maybe it's because

(You don't know me at all)

Ahhh ah
Ahhh ah

(You don't know me,
you don't know me.)

Ahhh ah
Ahhh ah

So, what I'm trying to say is
What (What?)
I'm trying to tell you
It's not gonna come out like I wanna say it cause I know you'll only change it.
(Say it.)

(You don't know me)
You don't know me at all
(You don't know me)
You don't know me at all (at all)

(You don't know me)
You don't know me at all
(You don't know me)
You don't know me at all (at all)

What?

(Mmmm, ohh oh
Ah ah ah ah ah
Aha ah ah ah
Ah-ah-ah-ah-ah
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh
Aha ah
Ah ah
Ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah
Oh-oh-oh-oh oh ohh)

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